I think it's kind of silly to apologize about not writing on here more often. I just don't like to write a whole lot, but when I have something to say AND am motivated to articulate it, then "bloggingness" happens, so lets just say- I update my blog about twice a year. If I happen to write more often, it will be an accomplishment. Anyway....
I guess for the last few months the Lord has been showing me a whole lot about myself, Him, and the way I approach Him. And the revelation I had today I think pretty much sums up my life recently at least. I'm gonna be a little vulnerable on this blog, but I think it's appropriate because I think the Lord uses the struggles and things we go through in our life, not only to make us stronger and draw us closer to Him, but also to encourage others- so I hope that you are encouraged.
Today as I was talking with the Lord, I was meditating on and asking Him what my love language is and how I give love (because they aren't necessarily the same thing.) I realized that the way I give love mostly is through acts of service, although that is not how I receive love (I think?) I'll do the dishes or clean things for my mom. I'll work without question and not ask anything in return. That is my way of blessing people. But there is more to relationship that just serving one another. There are other love languages too though- quality time, touch, gifts and words of affirmation.You have to spend time together. You have to talk to one another. You give each other hugs and encourage one another. It takes TIME. This is something that I think lots of us need the Lords help with. Today I was listening to Moody Radio (You know you're an adult when you listen to Moody Radio...) and Chris Fabere was talking about being intentional with our friendships. We're so intentional about where we go to school, looking for jobs, working out, etc. but friendships just seem to happen on accident. We need to be intentional about our relationships! This is not a message for only married couples. We need to be intentional about our friendships and our relationship with Jesus. I mean when you think about it, relationships are the only things that will last. It's what makes life worth living. Sure it feels good to be productive and feel like you've made a good life for yourself, but lets be honest are you really gonna care about how big your house was or how fast your car was on your death bed?? Those things are coming with you to eternity.
The Holy Spirit convicted me in a very loving way today about this. He doesn't just want me to work for Him. He wants to spend time with me. He wants to talk to me. He wants to give me life and fulfill my every need. It's just like any other relationship, but it's so much better because He is perfect. He doesn't take advantage of us. He's never jealous of us. He's always encouraging us. He never lies to us. But He knows EVERYTHING about us and still LOVES us. That is something that I am continually amazed by and so grateful for.
Someone wise once told me that in the Kingdom of God Lovers get more done than Workers do. We are human "beings" not human "doings." Let's start living like that.
